March 2022

I would be lying if I haven’t felt the deepest fear

The greatest anxiety

The heaviest heartbreak, worse than I have ever felt before

Tears that feel unceasing

Pain ….like nothing ..I have …..ever…….

I feel my heart shutting down

Vessel by vessel

Chamber by chamber

As blood pools and valves become sluggish and floppy because they grow weary…for now…

I know.

Yes I know

I know, what love is

I know I cannot live without it

I have tried

Burning and thrashing at the cords that bind me to it!

Biting at my own flesh to release myself from you

Spells

Addiction

Different loves

Ignoring

Abandoning

Minimising

Until I was spent

You are my greatest torment

but you are my love

You have been the guide that was the only one who could bring me to my knees

The only one who could heal me

I see you in your despair, and I know

I know that we are one

And my heart breaks for you

Just as your heart is breaking

I see you kiss me in the darkness

And I am restored

I know what love is

The unconditional love that you hear about in fairy tales

I am surrendered

I await you

I await your surrender

You are forever in my heart and my mind

and there is nothing I can do about it.

You are in the depths of me

You are the tide in the the chambers of my heart

That I so willingly sail.

Originally written 7/7/2020

I have the strength to carry you a thousand miles

To raise you above my head as we cross floods and swollen burgeoning wild rivers

Holding my breath knowing I can make it

I can make it for the both of us

I can sweat blood as I cross the desserts whilst you ride upon my shoulders

Because I have the strength of a thousand horses

I will cross searing coals and jagged glaciers barefoot for the simple touch of your hand upon my shoulder or for the simple twinkle in your eye or the slightest wrinkle of a smile upon your lips

Don’t ask me twice for anything or else you whip me with insult!

My strength is more powerful, more determined, more fierce than any warrior

Than any army

Than any Tsunami

Earthquake

Mountain

or Government.

But deny me your love….

And watch as I fade slowly..

An iron Tower that lies listless at the mercy of the sea

Weakened

Worthless

Empty

A forgotten and dormant stronghold

A giant that sleeps and is swallowed slowly by the Earth and the Sea

To those who have inflicted the vulnerable and the innocent with many pains

The second judgement is upon you

For still, you do not listen

The sorrow of those who followed you into heartache and suffering because they knew no better and you tended to the vulnerable with hate, dishonor and disrespect,

You shall be expelled from them forever

There is garbage and refuse that surround you

It’s stench offends us

There is no incense of perfume that can cover your putrid acts

The hearts that you have laid bare with the intent to destroy and mock

Shall be raised up and glorified for their integrity, their truth and their innocence

But the wound that you inflicted we shall heal

But it shall never close over again

The world will honor the grief and the suffering of those unmistakable wounds

For you have sealed your name upon them

Your lust for power and recognition shall be granted

As the perpetrator of the wounded

And the survivors of your conniving schemes and false care, shall thank you for releasing them to the knowledge of their worth and their value and they shall now have sight

For they have learnt the value of the heart

They have learnt what love is not

They have learnt what goodness is not

They can now discern between lies and truth

For if it were not for your evil deeds

Mankind would never discern the difference between what is good and what is evil

The wounded shall feast from a plentiful harvest

But you shall never be able to discern between good and evil because although you enjoy good fruits, you despise its appearance

You shall also have a harvest, but it shall be a harvest of famine

The Universe bestows upon you the evil fruit that you so desperately pluck

And the wounded can now harvest from the tree with the knowledge of which fruit is good and which fruit is rot

You have handed them the keys to the Universe and all the power that it contains, that you have so desperately craved

There is sorrow in the air

I see it land a mortal wound into the centre of your chest

It leaves a giant gaping wound

It’s sides flapping open like a giant manta ray gliding in the deep

Flap flap the edges bounce they bounce with your every step

Your heart lies unprotected and vulnerable for the first time

Today, you have been seen for who you truly are

As the light touches for the first time what has only known darkness

You stand with your hands in your pockets

Resigned to your fate…whatever that may be..

You allow all to look upon you and your giant gaping wound

As your heart continues to beat

The people who watched you as that sword fell

Turn away

Unable to look upon it

They feel disgust as you bleed openly before them

Peace falls upon you like you’ve never felt before

As one by one the onlookers flee the room as you stand with your hands in your pockets

For the first time the wisdom of silence speaks so clearly to you

“Let them go.” Wisdom says

“For those who love you, will love your heart the most. They will honor it. They will appreciate it. They will look upon you as wise, and beautiful.”

“It will be your compass and guide. It will be the lighthouse in the darkest of storms.”

“Honor it, in the knowledge that the lovers of the light, will be drawn to it also, like a moth to a flame.”

“It will draw those who appreciate the truth.”

“It will draw those who appreciate their own hearts, who have also been exposed and learnt their worth.”

For those who have eyes to see and those who have ears to hear

Love can now fall upon you

“Let me satiate you.” She naively whispered the first time

He tastes her innocently unwittingly opening the portal to all his desires.

“I wish to devour you!” he screams ravenously

The Universe quivers

She listens to his desires

Awaiting for him to hear them for himself

She must play Mother until the creation realises his own sentience

The Universe is ready

She is the endlessly expansive creator

He is the incessant hungry explorer

The Universe and her own insatiable sentient creation

Tumbling over each other

They endlessly expand together

She creates his every desire for him to explore endlessly

He consciously embraces her freedom to run ahead of him as she hangs the stars wherever she desires also.

They exist together in perfect unison

Creator and Creation in mutual desire

He stands at the gate with a shepherds crook

He whistles sweetly yet shrilly

Onlookers can hear them before they are seen

The sounds of excited calls from an enthusiastic flock can be heard

At first it comes randomly from across the paddocks and hillsides.

He whistles again and he smiles as they respond back in unison

They appear at first like water spilling from all corners of the paddock in streams and dribs and drabs from all the hidden places

White and pure and fast

The Flock run to him smiling with enthusiasm

They froclick with joy

The noise becomes a cacophony as they join together moving as one

They no longer require separation from each other

They are silly and unrestrained as they run to him

Even the elders of the flock cannot contain themselves, neither do they try to.

They do not require insistence to come when he calls

They race willingly to his side

They had known to remain hidden during the day awaiting his call

And come they did, at the very first whistle

The second was only for fun

They knew his call

To his side they ran

Circling him, they leapt around him calling loudly in greeting and uncontainable excitement

He honoured them with his care of them

They honoured him with their wool and their warmth

United they were strength against the cold and against the predators that lurk

Meteors crash

Creating devastation everywhere they touch

Nothing can stand

Dust is it’s wake

Fire is it’s champion

and carnage is it’s steed

Tsunamis appear upon the horizon

Rising deceptively in the distance

Their strength and their power, leave bystanders off guard

They had perceived it in the distance

As a gentle thing that they could easily overcome

So they are left unprepared

Their mouths fall open in shock as they realise they were carelessly watching their impending doom

The opportunity to flee was lost

The riches of the ocean floor had seduced them as they lustfully had lunged down the ever expanding beach

Greed and hunger blinding them to the dangers

Many had no belief in such events

But events do not care for belief

The waters always return

As the seduced are swept up into confusing heights

Tsunami’s leave corpses hung in trees

Dangling from power lines for carion to feast upon

Seduction for things that belong in the depths

Fills the bellies of all the scavengers and the birds of prey

Onlookers in the mountains, scream and cry for their friends their families and their loved ones

But there is nothing to be done

Everyone is judged that day

Only the self is held to account

For no one can excuse the warnings and the signs

Our decisions and consequences on days and events such as these are swiftly judged

The consequence is immediate

No excuse will be voiced by any one on this day

For it is clear and beyond any doubt

No second hearing or bail is found in this court

Our choices are revealed

And the outcomes are righteous

I am the impetus

The creator

The lover of all things beautiful

I am the lover of this world

The influencer and the being, the god and the well of life

I create all that is good and right and true

“carry me upon the wind and watch me grow wherever it is I am blown.”

” Oh storm you cannot contain nor destroy!”

A moth that hides and waits for the rains and the perfect season

I am a Bunya pine that sends its roots deep.

Watch as my fruit drop heavily upon the heads of the unconscious

Beware the coming of greatness

She flowers upon the new moon

And there will be nowhere her blossom is not seen.

THE TIME IS NOW.

The 11/11 portal has just closed…or should I say, exploded open rather!

The Divine Feminine’s have worked tirelessly to carry the burden of both the Divine Masculine and Feminine for healing and awakening the world to a new way on their own.

The Spirit world called them and they responded. They silently but steadily followed where they were called. They had to stand alone against unbelievable attack, obstacles and opposition. They were pulled away from their families, their jobs, their communities. As Spirit guided them away, it forced many of these structures to come crumbling down. It forced all of the people within these structures to look at themselves and to look around them and to be confronted by the toxicity that they continually reinforced. This act is still causing structures to tumble, like a domino effect, it has a lasting and ongoing effect far into the future. The crumbling of these structures will continue on into the future until every last tower has fallen. The Divine Feminines are coming to an end of their own healing or have completed the journey and the task they were commissioned to do before coming to Earth. They were born to upset, reveal and shed light into darkness. This has been a task that has carried many many burdens and caused great suffering for them. But they have succeeded. They are continuing to succeed. They have stood firm and unwavering and the Divine has seen it all. Dearest Divine Feminines, you are now going to be entering a time of abundance and blessing. You are going to experience profound protection from the Divine. Swift judgments fall upon those who wish to inflict harm upon you, and those who try, shall hide in fear from the retribution they receive- in the knowledge that you are divinely protected. You have stood firm and the Divine is grateful that you have. Your wishes will be granted because they are good wishes. You are now ready to receive. It is time for you to rest.

The Divine Feminines had to stand alone in every way to discover their strength and their purpose. They had to discover how powerful a leader they truly are. The Divine Feminines have proven themselves to the the entire Universe. THE UNIVERSES ARE ASTOUNDED.

The Divine Masculines are also now awakened and awakening. Unlike their Divine Feminines, who were quietly but steadily awoken by the Divine, The Masculines are awoken with a sudden ferocity, like an atomic bomb. It’s an awakening that powerfully shatters and silences everybody around them. Their toxic communities tremble at the Ferocious power of the Divine Masculines and no one can stand against them. They powerfully and suddenly see everything around them in full truth. This enrages them, they suddenly see the lack of integrity, the selfishness, and more importantly the injustice to the innocent around them. They are completely shaken by what they are seeing and by this seeing, they are immediately called to act upon it. The Divine Masculine is much more rapidly transformed than their counterparts, and true to their nature, they fiercely force change and do not take no for an answer. All the past manipulations that affected them previously, no longer works upon them. They call people out on lies. They no longer fear those who held power over them. They see through all the veiled threats, the false friendships and the emptiness that they were sold by the evil and deceptive people that surrounded them. This is a time for the Divine Masculine to truly be seen and heard and to stand powerfully as the King and the Emperor. All the suppression that the Divine Masculine experienced, is now being seen clearly for what is was. They now see themselves for who they are. Powerful Divine Chosen Leaders. They no longer seek assurance from others, they are assured by who they are, fully aware that they were the ones that others relied upon, not the other way around. (quick note- I just saw a vision where the animal kingdom sighs a deep relief, they have need the Masculine energy to protect them. As the Divine masculines awaken, animal rights shall be restored and protected. The masculines natural protective instincts kick into high gear as they remember their Divine calling in the Garden of Eden to care and protect Mother earth in all it’s beauty and its innocence. The animals are desperate for the Masculines to free them from the enslavements they are in. The More the masculines awaken the greater the care for Mother Gaia becomes.).

For now, the separation of the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine continues.

It is an important time to set things straight and to live in their purest authentic selves.

The Divine Feminines can now blossom. Their beauty can now fully be on display. Where they were once hidden, they shall now be seen. Where they were once dormant, now they bloom, when every other flower has already withered, and once again they will stand alone, because she outgrew them all.

The Divine Masculines are stepping up and loudly setting things right. Order is forcibly restored. Wrongs are being made right. They are weeding out everyone and everything that has caused chaos or disruption in any way. The Masculines are also readying themselves by forcing people to see them and to let people know that they are also being seen. A deep commitment to truth and deep desire to protect the innocent is what is guiding them. Their appreciation for these values fills them with a peace and a joy that they cannot describe. It heals them and they crave it deeply.