Last night I felt myself smile…..
I was dreaming
The first dream
I saw someone I had had my hopes in, from the past.
He was someone I once desired
I had dreamed of him in the past
I was sitting by the road with my back to him
I felt him drive past me
I felt him staring intently at me
But I paid him no attention
Then as dreams go
I heard him arrive home, I packed up my things (feeling immediately fatigued) and took myself to bed
I sat up in bed watching media
My eye’s could not stay open
I could hear the media’s voice talking incessantly and loudly
I couldn’t wake enough to turn it off
Then I felt a slight tickle on my arm
I saw a giant bullant race down my arm
I heard a knock on my door and his face peaked in the door
I heard his voice asking me if I was awake
I could barely nod
My eyes couldn’t open, they were so heavy and I was desperate to sleep
But I felt the tickle of the bull-ant running through my bed sheets
I swiped it off, trying to kill it, fearful of it’s bite
I felt him sit beside me on the bed
Gently trying to wake me
I knew his desires to seduce
But the bull ant….
and I could not open my eyes
He left knowing it was no use
I felt a heavy book in my hands
I smashed the bull ant with it
I could not see its dead body, but it never moved again.
I felt relief.
I was finally able to rest.
Then in the second
I dreamt I was driving on a safari
In a large open aired jeep
I drove through a shallow river bed
The motor became flooded and the vehicle became stuck in the mud
The river started to rise and water started to pour through the doors
The river bank was not far from the jeep
So I readied myself to jump to it
As I stood on the hood of the jeep about to jump
10 green alligators came slithering in to lie in wait
Watching my every move
Quietness underlying their readiness and tightly wound bodies
They had seen the trap immediately and did not hesitate
When all of a sudden
I felt a huge jarring jolt
The vehicle felt as if it had been hit by another car from behind
I fell backwards onto the vehicle again
My heart leapt
And my face crumpled with tears and I sobbed with relief and gratitude
Out of the river and the mud
My saviour had risen
She was a giant!
Larger than the jeep
Her presence required no fanfare
Her confidence was absolute
The Queen of the River…. a Hippopotamus
Who humbley and with barely an effort
Pushed the jeep up onto the dry ground
The alligators and crocodiles could only scatter or be crushed
This Monarch stood for no nonsense
Her mere presence scattered the cold blooded
She attended her duties without fuss
I loved her
And I felt her love
As she pushed me to life, I felt her determination, her strength and her power
I stared at her as she returned to the river
Almost hidden but ever watchful
Gratitude and the knowledge that I was safe
Sinking deeply into my being
I wanted to wait there a moment longer
But I knew that this was just the beginning.
I felt myself smile…..but not in my dream.
This was the sign.
I was not alone
I was loved
I was safe.