Experiences do not tell us WHO we are
People do not tell us WHO we are
Things do not tell us WHO we are
My peace cannot be dictated by anything
My peace cannot be dictated by anyone
Watch me rise
I am standing here today,
In this space
On this ground
While you run behind me
While you gather forces against me
As you stare at me in fury
That is ok
I’m ok to observe you in your fury
Because …..I am ok (she says it almost in a whisper…because she has never said it before).
But this makes you even more furious
How strange (she thinks to herself)
But how interesting (she observes to herself)
When you find peace for yourself and therefore happiness
How it brings forth rage and fierce determination in others to destroy it
Somehow your balance tips the scales for others
It drives them mad
They want you to remain mad and in despair and longing
Because it brings them …..happiness…? (Huh? she thinks to herself)
But maybe yes.
Your despair brings contentment and peace to those who wish ill of you
But to those who find their happiness and peace, despite this….
They unwittingly, heighten the unhappiness, despair and longing in those who wish you ill.
I have overcome my fear of you today
I have overcome my fear of losing you and being alone
I have overcome my desperate hope for your love
Because, I no longer fear myself
I no longer fear loss…of any kind…
Every loss is actually gain
So let them dance furiously around me
I am the maypole, that you dance around elaborately
As you wish me harm
But I thank you!
I deeply and profoundly thank you
For you are adorning me and making me beautiful
My heart is filled with gratitude for you
Deep and profound gratitude
I never knew my strength
I never saw my beauty
But today, I feel like a bride who wears no veil because she knows she is beautiful
She wants to show everybody
There is nothing to hide
Why do we have beauty, if it is not to be seen.
I will run through a field of flowers with the sun and the clear blue sky in a wedding dress with my hair flying free
I am like a bird in the air
Tumbling in delight at the freedom of flight.
I can sing, I can dance, I can laugh, I can run, I can fly.
As I stand as a maypole
Run freely like a an unveiled bride in a field of flowers
My sincere and profound gratitude
I give to you.