Hortator

This site has certainly evolved since I started it, and so have I. It's been a very emotional, spiritual journey and a deep awakening. I've been healing as I've been blogging. My wounds, my battles, my wins, my hopes and my learnings are raw and for the world to see. What I thought I knew....I didn't What I thought this was about....it wasn't. I thought I was just writing poetry, and although there is a poetic language and some structure to it.....I have had to accept that it is more than that. I come from a very conservative Christian background and it's quite obvious. I reference biblical themes, images and language regularly because of that background, it's simply part of my history. But I have now accepted that I no longer belong in that box. I had to break the box in order to expand. There is great wisdom in the biblical parables and stories, so I haven't thrown the baby out with the bathwater (try not to judge me for it, I realise for many of you, this will trigger a shut down response hurt and sometimes anger some will just find themselves dismissing it entirely- glazing over, trust me I get it! lol, but they are necessary, try and push through). There is also many Tarot references. Even before I started playing with Tarot, I can see many Tarot card characters and themes, that appeared way before I was willing to open myself up to that World. (It was a destiny, I was meant to pursue, although I fought it off for a long time due to my previous indoctrinations). Like many writers, it is as much a therapy for me as it is for you, (I'm still healing as well) Often when i'm writing, I don't fully understand the message until I read it back. The scene that I was describing is often completely different than what I am seeing in my minds eye. I noticed I was consistently creating mini stories with parabolic messages. I promise you this was never a conscious act. As I've progressed, and opened myself up to the spiritual realm, I was also getting messages everywhere telling me to be a clear channel. At this time Sept 2020, I can see very clearly, that although it's my language and imagery, the messages are channeled from Spirit. It still shocks me. When I receive inspiration, it often comes through a strong feeling or I see clear images and scenes, usually like short movie scenes. I simply go about describing what I see, and what I hear. Sometimes, when I read it back, I realise what I wrote was nothing like the scene that I saw. In other words, the actual message is often hidden from me. So when I read it back, I am often shocked and amazed, at what I am reading. A lot of what I write is really intense, it's emotionally intense. I'd describe it as a truth Tsunami. My advice is to allow yourself to respond emotionally. If you feel fear- then fear needs to be released, if you feel hurt or anger, then hurt and anger needs to be released and a truth about something is needing to be revealed. Keep a journal, release and express how you feel. Find a safe place to do so. Sometimes there is a prophetic element as well. There are warnings of things to come, to prepare you. There is guidance on how to overcome. There are descriptions of society and our relationships. There are descriptions of how you might be perceiving and relating to yourself. But the overarching theme is encouragement to rise above, to heal, to manifest, and to seek truth which leads to true love. The only way to do so, is to see, accept and to live in truth. No matter how painful. I believe it is the root of true happiness. It is a happiness and contentment and confidence that no person can steal. It's place you cannot be shaken from, because it aligns with the true self or the authentic self. It's a call to return to this state, by removing the false ego. This is my deepest wish for all, to know and experience true love. Starting from within you first. Because how you feel is what you shall receive. So heal from the pains and the traumas that have happened to you. I hope you open yourself up to this journey. It's painful, deeply challenging, but so important in fact I'd be so bold as to say fundamental to your happiness. I wish you courage and my love for you is absolute. Your happiness is deeply important to me and I want you to know how worthy you are of it. How it works. Let yourself be drawn to the the menu and whatever pops out to you is where you are being guided to pay attention to in your life. It could be an answer to a question you didn't know you had, you may receive warnings or you are being given insights into what is actually happening around you, as opposed to what you think or hope is happening around you. Remember, seek professional help, counselling etc if you feel overwhelmed, suicidal, are self harming or suffering addictions etc. What ever you need to do, please seek the help you need- anything that helps you heal so you can find your happiness, take that first step- you are worth it. All my love and hope for you and your happiness. KP Original Profile Notation About Me I am a novice writer, I am interested in creating a site to make public my work and see what happens. I hope to inspire and be inspired. I do not have a genre (yet). My goal is to write daily. I wish only to let the wind take me where it wills. View all posts by littlewren17